O’Hara wrote Oranges then about Oranges and Sardines In late March Love introduced me to Trader Joe’s chocolate-covered orange-jelly sticks I stopped writing walls I reached out from the ashen balcony I tried to touch the treeline
The ‘I’ still looks and tastes like a skinny cigarette but it blooms The ember doesn’t just air-eat it photosynthesizes Cousin Ray writes fire code for the FDNY’s legal bureau and he said fire is nocturnal Not benignly, as raccoons or ravers, he said not benignly
I can’t see but I am sure Oranges and Sardines are scrawled in a distant aunt’s hand Along the obsidian hawkwings decapitating the air above the treeline
(I’m not even that crazy about O’Hara)
I’m sure there’s more to Being than a cigarette or a hornet There’s more it’s just hidden by the wing of the Fascist warplane
The balcony is ash and concrete and has a black railing over the railing is fresh brick The color of sundried blood but if you make if far enough the trees are green Bright green, and a splash of salmon
(I’m not even that crazy about O’Hara) (I’m not even that crazy about O’Hara)
“Shoo, shoo,” they say.
Okay. Okay. Will do. Out to the street.
My hands are dirty, and they stink of mice.
I ain’t remember losing my shoes and shirt, but I did.
Cement. Cobblestone. Bits of grass. No difference under numb toes.
“This city has been blessed by God.” I say out loud, “again and again, century after century,” I
say this again and again, street after street, but after the fifth street, people stop tuning in, as
they know now that I took too much of what you can’t take too much of, but it’s okay. It’s Sunday.
And while they ain’t want me in church, I’ll sit outside, on the steps, and watch the people go by,
and the organ will seep out from inside, and I’ll shake, I’ll sway, and the blood from my feet will
puddle in cobble, into the crevices, the old, old ridges, and it will dry there, raised catholic clay,
and I’ll pray. I’ll pray.
It’s okay. It’ll fade soon. Fear of God. Blah of Blah. Shoo, shoo. I’ll leave. The bells are ringing.