PEACHFUZZ Journal
No Contact
Sasha Debecvec-McKinney
My body is getting used to not being fucked as much
as I want, whenever I want. The symptoms are numerous
but mostly it’s hemorrhoids. It’s to do with my appetite,
an unhappiness in my gut: I can’t have him back.
Despite the blood on the toilet paper, despite the itch
around my asshole, I keep telling him if he visits
I’ll finally let him fuck it. I feel my pulse
down there. For months I embarrass myself
like this: bargaining, offering, begging, I flare
and flare. I find myself face down at Urgent Care, where
the nurse inspects my anus and declares it normal.
I promise she says, your asshole is perfect. And I’m not allowed
to text him that.
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